Really struggling today.....

I feel so cold and tired and tearful and really agressive all at the same time today. I want to go home and just be alone and have a hot bath but I have to stay at work. Ive got lots to do but I can't face doing any of it and I can't concentrate.
Was very manic and innapropriate on Wed night so I know this is the other side of it but I just want to run away from people today.
Just the noise of the phone ringing on my desk makes me want to rip it out of the socket and throw it at the wall and watch it smash whilst at the same time I barely have the strength to lift my arms.

Everything is too much and too loud today.

My boss is starting to notice that I haven't really done anything this morning. He knows about my bi polar but I don't want to tell him Im having a bad day because I don't want the 'pity head tilt', Im having to be really careful not to snap at him though.

Hello,
So sorry your having a realy bad day. It sounds dreadful and I do know what your going through. If you can't cope can't you just go home?
Tell your boss, to hell what he thinks, he knows your condition doesn't he? Try some deep breathing while you decide what to do.
Sorry I can't be more helpful, but I'm thinking about you and wishing you peace of mind.
Dalia x

Hi Stephanie, I am BP too. Sorry to be late to add. Can any of your work be done from home? I think you should speak to your boss about some flexibility in your working arrangements

best of luck

Tell us how you got on today please.
I think biker hazel has a great idea for you, and do talk to your boss.
Kind thoughts, Dalia