Forgive me for the words unsaid

I know & understand that there is always somebody worse off ... I feel guilty 24/7 for who and what I am... the days drag on & on & on ......on & on .... I am trying to get work ... I don't think I am good enough ... I have attended several courses to make me more employable ... I am fighting a losing battle ... I am ashamed ... I am lost ... give me a break from this punishment ... there's only so much one person can take ... I need a new lifeline ... or just a hug will do ..please :''(

here have two pigs.

I know & understand that there is always somebody worse off ... I feel guilty 24/7 for who and what I am... the days drag on & on & on ......on & on .... I am trying to get work ... I don't think I am good enough ... I have attended several courses to make me more employable ... I am fighting a losing battle ... I am ashamed ... I am lost ... give me a break from this punishment ... there's only so much one person can take ... I need a new lifeline ... or just a hug will do ..please :''(

well do you like sex if you don't like sex i don't like sex is well but if you do like sex well......................

I know & understand that there is always somebody worse off ... I feel guilty 24/7 for who and what I am... the days drag on & on & on ......on & on .... I am trying to get work ... I don't think I am good enough ... I have attended several courses to make me more employable ... I am fighting a losing battle ... I am ashamed ... I am lost ... give me a break from this punishment ... there's only so much one person can take ... I need a new lifeline ... or just a hug will do ..please :''(

do you want to go clubbing lets go clubbing come on we can dance all night and all day and all night.

I know & understand that there is always somebody worse off ... I feel guilty 24/7 for who and what I am... the days drag on & on & on ......on & on .... I am trying to get work ... I don't think I am good enough ... I have attended several courses to make me more employable ... I am fighting a losing battle ... I am ashamed ... I am lost ... give me a break from this punishment ... there's only so much one person can take ... I need a new lifeline ... or just a hug will do ..please :''(

Britney Spears - I'm A Slave 4 U http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mzybwwf2HoQ

I know & understand that there is always somebody worse off ... I feel guilty 24/7 for who and what I am... the days drag on & on & on ......on & on .... I am trying to get work ... I don't think I am good enough ... I have attended several courses to make me more employable ... I am fighting a losing battle ... I am ashamed ... I am lost ... give me a break from this punishment ... there's only so much one person can take ... I need a new lifeline ... or just a hug will do ..please :''(

Justin Timberlake Featuring Timbaland - SexyBack http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oqXwnXjgDE&ob=av3n

Hi you lot, it seems that things are pretty hard for everyone today.
Jude you have nothing to feel guilty about, your pain is as real as all others.The days and nights do drag on but each day we must fight the black dogs and we will do it together,all of us with virtual hugs and hands to hold.I have a strong virtual hand to hold,ok theres no flesh and bones to hold but this hand keeps me fighting,at times even makes me smile.
BDT have you done any art work yet?
Keep safe,
lOVE wednesday

Hi you lot, it seems that things are pretty hard for everyone today.
Jude you have nothing to feel guilty about, your pain is as real as all others.The days and nights do drag on but each day we must fight the black dogs and we will do it together,all of us with virtual hugs and hands to hold.I have a strong virtual hand to hold,ok theres no flesh and bones to hold but this hand keeps me fighting,at times even makes me smile.
BDT have you done any art work yet?
Keep safe,
lOVE wednesday

no i just looked at a older woman's neck.

Morning BDT, this might sound like a silly question but why were you looking at a older womans neck are you planning on drawing her?
Another vivid dream as woke me,this will be three nights without any sleep now.I met my new care co ordinator yesterday he seems very nice but there was a lot of uncomfortable silence which was spooky, i felt like an animal at the zoo being watched.Ive been on the new meds nearly a week now the anti psychotic seems to be starting to work,yesterday my head didn't go into overdrive once.Hopefully soon the anti Ds will kick in as im still feeling suicidal every day.Im to start taking a higher dose from Monday.
Hope you lot are sleeping well tonight safely
Love Wednesday

Morning,im bloody shattered but trying to stay focused on taking one day at a time.Ive had a few song lyrics in my head but im trying to ignore them.I might go for a walk later to the local retail park to pick up somethings for the house which the kids dad will say i dont need.I want a retro sweet jar for the kitchen and a pink mirowave and pink units and a striped carpet for the stairs.

Hi all,

Jude, I understand the loneliness and guilt. I haven't had a relationship for over 20 years, have no kids and, in that respect, have no hope. Sometimes it hurts so much because I have no one physically next to me, no comforting arm or hand to reach out to. I guess I'm trying to say don't feel guilty for feeling lonely, there are more of us out here than you realise so, strangley, you're not alone.

BDT how's the art coming on? I spent last night wandering round Liverpool looking at art (we had a cultural exhibition on). Some of it was really goo, some of it was poo! And some of it was just downright weird!!! One day I'd like to see some of your stuff posted somewhere or exhibited. Bet it's good.

Wednesday how are you doing? Go for a long hot bath and try to get some sleep today. I'm glad the anti psychotics seem to be working and you head is calming down. The rest will follow as the anti d takes effect - just give it a while longer and you'll be able to do things again to lift your mood.

i was going to pick up some dead drift wood and do some drawing yesterday but we just ended up going to see some sort art film it was bout some older poet and painter woman it was short all closes up and had times laps in it t was very arty i thought it was really boring.

hi folks, welcome Jude, as others have said, now that you have found this thread you are not alone, and we all try and prop each other up.

glad you are sounding better Wednesday

Hi Hazel,BDT,Steve and Jude,
Hazel it was good to see your post,how are you feeling?
The new anti psychotics do seem to be kicking in,no major overdrives today, just my mind wondering,lack of concentration but im am trying to stay focused.
BDT sorry you didnt enjoy your film yesterday maybe you could do some art today.
Steve your night out sounds interesting,im sorry you are feeling so alone,remember you have us lot though,we are here for you.
How are you Jude?
Im off to tidy round up stairs,sitting still for to long does make my mind wonder towards the dark side so its off to work i go,HI HO,HI HO.
LOVE WEDNESDAY

never eat two cream cakes in the morning it gave me the runs.

this sugar diet is really working i am loosing weight just like that.

I am doing fine thanks Wednesday, think i am coming out of the blue funk i have been in for over a week.