Aimlessly trawling the internet & found my way here, don't think I could find anything that sums up how I am feeling right this minute any better than 'I feel alone'.
A brief history... treated for depression, GAD and social anxiety for many years. Have been on Citalopram 40mg for several years but came off it and have been med-free for about 6 weeks. Been feeling increasingly worse - heart pounding, tension headaches, retreated away from the world (not that I was ever really engaged with it), felt constantly anxious, panicky and have had what I can only describe as mood swings. By this I mean going from uncharacteristically optimistic, confident, capable of anything frame of mind to absolute panic to irritation (to the point I want to throw things and scream) to having suicidal thoughts and feeling completely hopeless.
Been back to the GP today (now feeling even worse than before I went) and have been prescribed Sertraline 50mg and told that I can take it if I want and that I need to go back in 4 weeks time. I have been under the local mental health team a couple of years ago but they concluded they couldn't help (could only offer 2 forms of therapy and neither considered suitable for me) and the GP hasn't re-referred me back to them.
Has anyone had any good or bad experiences with Sertraline? I'm really worried about it and unsure whether I should take it or not.
Should I speak to the GP about psychological therapy when I go back? I *really* don't want to be on medication but can recognise that i'm not doing too well at the moment... is it worth trying again?
If anyone even understands, it means i'm slightly less alone with this. Thanks for reading.