Taking Back Control

EVIE 190

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Dear All

i've been working myself up to this latest little disaster -
I knew I'd got to disinstruct but how to get it done and stop dithering -
We myself to stand up  to the solicitors and convince myself that I can represent myself  -
I did do that before but my Defence needed rehashing  as I'd made a right "dog's dinner!" I'd previously instructed to tackle the terrible ones who trashed my home (builders)

I've upset a few people in high places
The latest being a Freemason and Judge who was in the East Anglian newspaper two years ago in November - he'd presided over a paedophile  case - one called  Kevin Page  from Beccles-
Whereas the Daily Mail is going on about Ronnie Barker's son downloading the level 4 photos that you would count on one or two hands -
This one downloaded 250! So the judge gave him "community  service  - My bet is he too was another Freemason - was self employed so that suggests he could well have been.
You see this judge is also a Framlinghamian belonging to the relevant 'Craft Lodge' another offshoot of the Freemasonry.  There must be something in the waters down here !

There's something nasty in the woodshed - I'm telling you something's going on.
Why would the manageress of Leiston CAB tell wild lies about our interview I attended two years ago -
Well of course something to do with my reporting several legal beagles in this area involved in massive collusion and corruption - encouraged by a "big shot"  in the town who was treating me after Dr McElhinney struck me off for daring to complain about the massive does of unjustified benzodiazepines in 1986 -
While working in a GP surgery suddenly and my grandmother's geriatrician sounding alarm bells
I rushed back to start researching data on what I had been left on for all those  years
The SHOCK - GRIEF - ANGER - PAIN - DISTRESS- EUPHORIA - FREEDOM!! ICE CREAMS ALL THE WAY NOW![code]

i certainly proved to myself that by revealing just how I felt about my mother in poems sent to her - having no phone number -no ability to make an appointment to see my own mother!
I sent one i wrote about hospital waiting for my mother to come and see me - and her not coming
I was convinced the sky was going to fall in!!
Terrified of the massive fall out -
But this time nothing - Her bank the go-betweens were reading my mail before she received it -
i felt an enormous load fall off my shoulders once I'd off loaded some feelings onto her whether she understood, read it or what -
At the same time choosing to tackle the worst first - consequently gave me far more courage
rather than running round the house unable to decide if I'm going, staying or just fooling about!
But you see by tacking the worst first freed me up to tackle other much lesser mortals-#
I meant to go bed earlier than this must
go now

eyes starting to close!-

Lots' Love to all out there Big GROUP HUG
Judith XX
Judith