Hi, I had a break down in 2010 and since then have become isolated to the point of social phobia, in spite of having a full life in the past. I can't think about tomorrow because it is just too scary so I just try and get through each day although sometimes there are just too many hours in one day. Friends have stopped ringing because they know that I will cancel any arrangements at the last minute, and my husband goes out with his mates. I am working on this and do not want to be like this for ever. My dream is to get back into life and re-invent myself. Ive done it before so I can do it again, but sometimes my depression and negative voice just robs me of my best intentions and my energy. Being proactive on this site is a start at least in connecting with the outside world, a world that I convince myself is hostile, even though I know deep down it is just filled with people like me trying to survive, so in the meantime I just have to accept where I am at the moment and make the most of it. I can take the dog across the road to the woods, but stopping to chat to somebody is really difficult and I analyse the conversation for ages afterwards. I can't seem to focus on anything like reading a book and my attention is not good at the moment. I just wondered what other tribers do to get through the day especially on the days that it seems really difficult. I did have a life once and I really want to get out of this prison.