Hi miss Diagnosed,
Thank you so much for your reply, and yes I am thinking about you, your story makes me feel very angry for people like yourself, who by no fault of their own, have been treated so badly by the professionals.
It's all called cover-up, it's found in every walk of life, and I know for a fact, whistleblowing is what THEY ask for, but in truth it's not the perpetrator who gets the fifty lashes, it's the whistleblower!!!
Therefor I understand your hesitation and fear about talking out loud.
I think life has been very unkind to you, like a boat lost out at sea, rough seas, always waiting to get rescued, but having to stear clear of the sharks!!! That's how I see you, I do hope that this does not offend
I don't mean it to. Perhaps you will see the rescue ship in the far distance very soon.
As for me, I have severe clinical depression, had it now for over forty years, so you would think Im used to it by now, but, no I'm resigned to the illness but it doesnt get any easier. Sometimes if feel disabled, such as - cant get up from bed, wash, go out, speak to anybody, tired all the time, totally rely on medication ( and will be on meds for the rest of my life ) never look forward to anything, my get up and go has GONE, and other related stuff, was in the old style mental hospital for my own safety etc., (felt safe in hospital and did not want to leave) many other episodes in my life, but won't put it on line.
Today I'm feeling ok, just very tired, thanks for asking.
I read about Black Dog Tribe in an hospital news letter, so thought I'd give it a try, so many sad souls, so much unhappiness, I'm not so sure the site is doing me any good, i get so involved with it all, but that's my nature, always try to do my best to help. Work is like that too, for the last 33yrs I've worked in residential homes with severe challenging behaviour and mobility difficulties (social services) so was in a caring role throughout. Realy loved the clients and will miss them all so much when finish work.
That's enough about me for now don't you think.
Take good care of yourself. xx